Thank you for Temporarily destroying my Confidence.

I seem to have found a loop hole in the messy cycle of unfortunate events that continuously wind about in my life, and in this loop hole I've scored:


- A new job working as a baker full-time at Magnolia Bakery

-The spontaneous ability and strength it took to quit smoking and stick with it

-The confidence to fight for the life I deserve- so I joined Bally's Total Fitness today.

-An A in Biology. :}


Things tend to happen in colonies, so here is my wretched little twist of fate-

I'm doing everything in my power to better myself as an individual on this planet. Now, I get to do that with Magnolia's delicious poppyseed muffin at my side. I figured that if I'm ever going to become the woman I am destined to be, and that I know in my heart- I have to start making some changes in my life. I've been thinking about all of the times that I feel angry, bitter, stressed. I realized quickly they all have to do with:

A) Money/Lack there of, and financial responsibility (or lack there of,);

B) Smoking and how in the last six months I've developed physical symptoms, and strong ones at that, which I am taking as my personal warning that I'd better stop now- before it is too late,

C) My weight, and being overweight, and how it directly affects my life on a day-to-day basis, including, but not limited to: confidence, self-esteem, being able to work without feeling uncomfortable, being able to network and not feeling like an angry woman, having confidence in myself and physical health most importantly.


So, I decided that the best form of tackling these issues so that I may swan-dive into the life I favor having would be to tackle them all, at once, and so far it's working out. Because I can keep myself occupied when I'm focusing on so many particular aspects of life. I just know these are all things I can fix, so in the last three days I have

a) Quit Smoking

b) Landed the job

c) Obtained a membership at a great gym two blocks away from where I hope to be living

d) Cried on the bus ride home.